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As great as life imitating art would be, it's just not feasible
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No man knows what gay sex is going to be like the first time. No matter how many porn clips we play on a loop beforehand, it never matches up with reality.
If you're still a virgin (and there's nothing wrong with that!) you may look to porn for tips on how to go about it for your first time. Even if you're a seasoned pro, it might be a little of the same deal.
Here are 10 lies porn can teach you about gay sex.
#1 Everyone looks good when they're having sex
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There's definitely all types of porn out there, and beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but if you're watching something, it's likely you've sifted through the options to find something that suits your style.
That said, when you find something that tickles your fantasy, anyone in the video is going to look good to you. Don't have the expectation of everything going smoothly, everyone looking great the whole time, and every experience being the height of your fantasies. Lower your expectations and just let the good times roll.
#2 Every situation is an opportunity to have sex
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The pizza delivery guy. The gym trainer. The dentist. The doctor. The grocery store worker and his nasty boss who's watching from the corner. Your neighbor when his wife goes to work. Porn definitely takes on everyone's wildest fantasies and puts it onto the screen so you can live vicariously through the actors (because yes, that's still technically what they are.)
Don't get me wrong -- it's not like none of these things can happen. Fantasies also take on a form of real life in some regard, but don't expect some fantastical sex situation to happen anytime you go out your front door.
#3 Virgins come out of the closet a Power Bottom
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I can’t tell you how many films I’ve seen dealing with virginity loss backstories. The majority of the time, the virgin is bright-eyed and smiling up a storm while he’s getting a ride fit for a rodeo. Don’t get me wrong. Some dude’s jump into bottoming right at the beginning, but the reality is it takes a while getting comfortable enough to want it all the time.
Bottoming is as mental as it is physical. It takes a while for your body to broaden and expand towards deeper horizons. Never are you going to magically jump in the deep end your first go around. That's a bunch of bull.
#4 Gay sex makes for easy clean-up
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The Pine-Sol lady does not come after it’s all set and done. Men sweat, which is something I love, and we get wet and sticky most of the time – at least when we’re giving our A-game.
My philosophy has always been if you haven’t broken a sweat then you’re being too safe. I’ve had great sex in my life and rarely do we ever finish on top of crisp white sheets. It’s always a wrinkled-up pile of damp sticky mess and I like it that way.
#5 There's no preparation WHATSOEVER
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Very, very few gay men are ready at the snap of a finger to bottom. There’s prep work, which requires more than a shower. Some douche, but more importantly it's about us soaping and tidying up down there. For guys who find it difficult bottoming, we need to exercise our sphincter muscles at least two times a week with a toy so it builds muscle memory for bottoming to be enjoyable. It ain’t all it’s cracked up to be, so for anyone who thinks it’s as easy as pie, I’d like them to sashay away please.
#6 BIGGER is always the BETTER option
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There are plenty of Size Queens out there in the world, but I’m sure even they admit that just because a man is packing heat does not give him the right to stay in the kitchen. There are countless of guys with average to smaller penises that rock someone's world as equally as the big boys.
Our prostates are only four inches inside (and around the corner), so do the measuring. Trust me when I say size doesn’t necessarily fit all. Kudos to you for enjoying a third leg, but for the majority of gay men it’s not a requirement. Don’t believe it.
#7 Ejaculation is always going to be consistent
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I always forget that I’m watching a film, which means there’s editing, retakes, lighting, even questionable CGI. Life doesn’t run on digital time. It exists in our mind and body’s physiological breaks. We’re not always going to cum exactly when our partner does — we’re just not.
Hell, sometimes we won’t at all. It doesn’t mean we’re not sexually attracted to them anymore, and it especially doesn’t mean we didn’t have a good time. Sometimes our mind gets fucked up and decides to take a bit more time than usual. We’re not always going to shoot across the room like Peter North — but we’ll certainly have fun trying.
#8 Everyone is a contortionist
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There are so many porn stars down to shoot a leg up to the ceiling while their partner grabs the other and straddles it on top of the kitchen sink while he’s reaching around to grab the testicles and pull himself in and out like a circus monkey. The only people who can do this should be working for Cirque du Soleil. It’s hard enough to do a decent split, the last thing I need is to be bent like a pretzel. There’s absolutely zero pleasure in being made into Stretch Armstrong. All lies!
#9 Everyone likes a good rape scenario
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This is tricky, and the secret lies with consent. Plain, good old-fashioned, consent. I’m a pretty big fan of being dominated over, but there’s a fine line between “Yes, boss me around” and “OK, should I call the cops now?”
If a guy is using me to live out his lifelong fantasy of actually raping someone, he’s getting kicked in the groin and told his place. There needs to be some heavy communication beforehand to warn a guy. Rape isn’t a joke. It can be sexy when we’re both on the same page but never should anyone assume it’s going to be as free-flowing as it is on Porn Hub.
#10 The sex is always a surprise
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I hate to speak for others, but I have yet to meet a gay guy who, at least when he’s young, hasn’t agreed that making out “leads to other things.” But in porn, it’s always a surprise: They see each other, start talking, and suddenly they’re in the backroom of a 7-11 getting stuffed like a creamsicle.
The reality is you feel the tension long before any deed actually happens. When it does, the anxiety leaves so we can finally give in to what we all knew was inevitable. Men are kind of psychic when it comes to sex, so two gay guys are almost always aware when there’s at least a possibility. Trips to the bathroom to make sure you smell fresh become too frequent not to assume anything else. We've all been there.
It’s incredible to imagine that medical advances have given us such large opportunities to prevent HIV contraction. Twenty years ago, PrEP might have sounded like science fiction. These days, not only is it a gift from the scientific community but it’s quite possibly one of the greatest innovations of the 21stcentury for HIV prevention.
When taken daily by someone who is HIV-negative, pre-exposure prophylaxis (PrEP) makes it impossible to contract the virus from HIV-positive sex partners. Truvada, the only U.S. FDA-approved drug to be used as PrEP, is widely available but there are many men and women who don’t know how to access the drug at low cost. Here are a few ways to find it:
Gilead Advancing Access Program:
If you’re unable to pay for Truvada, this program may be able to help. For those with commercial insurance, one way is through a co-pay coupon card through the Gilead Advancing Access program. If eligible, the coupon covers up to $7,200 in co-pays per year with no monthly limit for Truvada.
Those enrolled in government healthcare programs like Medicaid, Medicare, or VA, aren’t eligible for the program, however they can be eligible for other support resources through independent co-pay foundation. Those who don’t have insurance should check out the Medication Assistance Program, which supplies free PrEP to those who qualify.
Local Organizations
Certain local health departments, doctor’s offices, and organizations like Planned Parenthood and GMHC not only provide free testing for STIs but they’ll also supply you with PrEP facts and direct you to workers who will work with your current situation and guide you through proper steps to get free or affordable PrEP. The staff will help you apply for health insurance or assistance programs.
For New Yorkers, NY Health clinics are truly a God-send. They offer free counseling, testing, and one-on-one consulting for those who are interested in PrEP (be prepared to stay at least an hour, though).
Patient Assistance Programs
Foundations and agencies offer great patient assistance programs that will help you find resources to cover the cost of PrEP. Some even help you cover the whole thing!
PrEPLocator.org makes it easy by implementing an easy-to-use PrEP finder that allows users to locate the nearest facility that connects seekers to PrEP resources.
PleasePrEPme.org allows you to chat virtually with navigators who are available to answer any of your questions as it pertains to insurance, FAQs, and other queries you might have about Truvada. They’ll break it down to specifics.
Partnership for Prescription Assistance will help you link up with assistance programs. Those who are on government insurance plans (Medicare, Medicaid) will benefit highly, especially if you’re looking for copay assistance.
Patient Advocacy Foundation can qualify you for nearly $7,500 a year to pay for the costs, whether you have health insurance through your work or the government. Those making less than $47,500 could qualify, pending income verification.
Patient Access Network (PAN) Foundation can cover the whole lot of the medication, whether you have health insurance through your work or the government. Those making less than $58,800 could qualify, pending income verification.
Plush Care
Plush Care offers expert health care through video chats, and their team of experienced doctors will help provide diagnoses, treatment, and prescriptions — all over the phone.
If you go to PrEP.PlushCare.com, you will be able to speak to a doctor via your phone. In 15 minutes, your doctor will walk you through questions mandatory to ask PrEP seekers. From there, they will send a prescription to your local pharmacy and have it ready within the hour! Talk about easy.
It was love at first sight for Thomas Davis and Jace Dawson. As partners, advocates, and speakers, they have held each other through incredible milestones and will affirm their love in front of friends and family later this year when they tie the knot. Now, they’re choosing to share their story to combat HIV stigma and to inspire other couples to share their own stories.
Like thousands of couples around the world (17,000 in Canada alone, according to Liviana Calzavara, leading expert in HIV and professor at the University of Toronto), Davis and Dawson are in a serodiscordant relationship, whereby one person is HIV-positive and the other is HIV-negative.
Disclosing your status to someone you love is a constant struggle if you’re living with HIV, mainly due to the stigma around it. Thankfully, HIV education has enriched many conversations in the gay community to a point where love sometimes conquers ignorance.
Like many others, when Davis, who is poz, nonchalantly disclosed his status to Dawson on their first date, it proved to be a tiny trial.
“It was a shock at first — and it should not have been, because I considered myself well-educated,” says Dawson, who is HIV-negative and on PrEP today.
At a later date, Dawson brought it up again. “We had that conversation,” he says. “As uncomfortable as it was, you know, we worked through it.” Dawson admits having lived in New York City previously and knowing others who are living with HIV, which helped him articulate his feelings better.
For Davis, who was diagnosed HIV-positive in 2013, speaking his truth has always been a priority and he’s never faulted. As a choreographer and HIV activist, he’s spoken to audiences in the U.S. and abroad, empowering young people in the fight against HIV.
“I didn't really have an issue disclosing to anybody,” Davis says of his prior dating life. “I didn't really care if somebody wanted to be with me or not… if you're going to have an issue with me that's a little ridiculous, [because] you wouldn't have an issue with somebody that had cancer, or diabetes, or was blind. If you are going to have an issue, then you're not the one for me.”
Davis adds, “There were times that I would fear for my safety. If I was with somebody and I told them, I wasn't [sure] what their reaction would be — positive or negative — and it could possibly turn violent. Luckily none of that ever happened for me.”
It was a long conversation for he and Dawson though.
“That was a hard conversation that we had to have together,” Dawson recalls. “A lot of prayer, a lot of just truth with each other first. And, in order to do that we had to really tune the world out, and turn on Tom and Jace.”
The decision for Dawson to be on PrEP happened before the relationship became intimate — and after speaking to a doctor.
Today, the men worry that there aren’t enough examples of serodiscordant relationships in the public eye. Part of the reason, Davis thinks, is because young people aren’t being educated enough about PrEP (for those who are HIV-negative) or the importance of treatment as prevention, where those with HIV can reduce the virus to undetectable levels in their blood and thus would be unable to transmit HIV to anyone else.
“There's a lot of conflict in the prevention field,” Davis says, later calling out for health professionals and advocates to step up their responsibilities. “If you look at organizations like the AIDS Healthcare Foundation — which should be a leader when it comes to something that is this effective in preventing HIV — it took them how many years to finally stop saying that [PrEP] was a party drug and to stop saying this is going to lead to a super strain? When you put rhetoric like that out into the community, it does damage for a few years before people will start to come out of it and have different nuances of conversation.”
Dawson adds that for many people, it’s fear that prevents them from speaking about PrEP and undetectability. The more we talk about it, the more fear and perhaps post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) we have to face, especially among long-term survivors.
“They went through a large epidemic in the ‘80s into the ‘90s, and they finally got… control over the situation. So, they don't want an uprising of something else that they can't handle. ‘They’ being our heterosexual counterparts. They don't realize they're just as affected as we are. [HIV is] not linked to one group of persons, or one dynamic. In order to save one community, you're saving us all.”
At the end of the day, it’s their love that holds them together — not their statuses. “Love is for everybody,” Dawson says. “It is possible no matter what, and we're leading in that way by affirming our love, by affirming our marriage in the middle of the year, and about how we’re not allowing all the road blocks and the hurdles to stop us, or prevent us from doing that.”
